| 1. | the act or process of deciding; determination, as of a question or doubt, by making a judgment: They must make a decision between these two contestants. |
| 2. | the act of or need for making up one's mind: This is a difficult decision. |
How do you tell someone that a relationship is beyond repair, that they have hurt you too badly to ever go back to how things were? Every time I try I can never do it, I know things are bad now, but a part of me still doesn't want to hurt him.
I guess that even if I was ok with hurting him, I doubt I would have the courage to actually do so.
A big part f me wants to go somewhere on my own for a while, just go without warning and not have any way of people getting hold of me. Just so I can think, maybe even try and sort my head out a bit, you never know. But I don't think that will happen. Knowing me I would get lost or something.
Another thing is getting me down as well. I feel as though there is a big part of life that I missed by going to college instead of staying on at 6th form. All my friends from school hardly speak to me any more and it isn't for the want of trying. I'm getting so sick of waiting for replys to emails and messages.
I know I have never been that social of a person, but I do try. I have my reasons for not being too social, and I truly believed that some people understood that. I guess I was wrong.
