Doubt

doubt

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–verb (used with object)

1.	to be uncertain about; consider questionable or unlikely; hesitate to believe.

2.	to distrust.

3.	Archaic. to fear; be apprehensive about.

–verb (used without object)

4.	to be uncertain about something; be undecided in opinion or belief.

–noun

5.	a feeling of uncertainty about the truth, reality, or nature of something.

6.

distrust.

7.	a state of affairs such as to occasion uncertainty.

8.	Obsolete. fear; dread.

Have you ever believed in something so completely, that you never thought that anything would make you doubt it? That has happened to me twice today; once with a good friend which started off as a joke and the second an off hand comment from a stranger.

Maybe I do take things a bit too seriously... maybe way too seriously in some cases. Or maybe I am just an emotional wreck at the moment, if I have ever been any thing else. Maybe I am the sort of person who is too caught up in the past and lies, trying to be someone I'm not. The thought of trying to find myself, it scares me so much, and for so many reasons. I mean, there has to be something I am hiding from, hasn't there? There has to be something that I am trying to avoid. I thought that it was stuff that happened with my dad, but I've delt with that. I'm sure I have. I just don't know what else it can be.